The Cheryl S Story
Some Memorable Events From Scientology Training
I did the Professional TRs course ("Pro TRs") in about 1983 or 1984. I noticed that when Steve would start to bullbait me, it seemed like the attention of people in the practical room would shift to us. It was something I could feel, rather than see. So when Steve bullbaited me and used material like "How about a hot cock sandwich with come dripping out the sides" to try to get me to break my confront, I remember hearing the whole practical side of the course room going completely, utterly, heart-stoppingly silent. I squelched the fire fighting to flood my face and the extreme humiliation. I did not let my confront break. I could not believe my own husband would say something so outrageous, much less in public, but he just laughed about it. I had no idea he could be so lewd. He said other outrageous things during those bullbaiting session, but that one, for obvious reasons, stuck in my mind. It was soooo degrading. I mean, what respectable man talks to his wife like that? I don't know any respectable man that would. But what I do know is this: Scientology ain't no religion! Not in the context as I have come to understand what a religion is.
I also did the Scientology Minister's Course. This consisted of the usual Scientology course checksheet which included mostly Scientology-related materials. I believe a prerequisite was finishing the Class IV auditor course (but not interning, because I never interned.) The only non-Scientology requirement was reading a thin paperback book entitled "The World's Great Religions" and it was not even required to be "checked out" or any other special study technology applied to it rather than read it and clear up any misunderstood words.
To complete the course, I had to deliver a "sermon". I selected a benign topic, "Affinity, Reality and Communication" and gave a five minute lecture to Academy students after the weekly graduation. Once done, Terrie, the sarcastic Ethics Officer, did a little motion with her hands (making the sign of the cross) and said, in her usual gruff, disgusted manner, "you're ordained." It was rude. It confirmed to me that the minister business was a deception and not taken seriously, and because her rudeness confirmed the unseriousness of the title, I never acted in the capacity as a minister. Nor did I ever see any fellow staff members, or anyone for that matter, deliver sermons or "church" services at Valley Org ever, or any of the other four missions-turned-orgs during the 12 years I was associated with them. I do know that they had people in that capacity at ASHO and AO who wore the black minister shirts, but I believe it was just for show. No one, except possibly new recruits, ever attended. Scientology's gods were then, and remain today, money and power.
When I finally did make it to my Class IV internship, however, the intern supervisor (Paul Roady) was outraged at my questions and demanded to know if I had "false attested" my Academy levels. At this point, I was furious. I had been pushed through all 5 Academy levels (Levels 0-IV-how do you say "zero" in Roman numerals?-never figured out why numbers weren't used instead) obviously just so the org could have their "comp" (course completion). I refused to re-train the Academy levels. (A retrain costs you 50% of the original price paid.) I routed off the internship extremely disillusioned and never went back.
I also received the PTS Rundown. Scientology has this medieval belief that all illness stems from being PTS. They deride the "germ theory" of illness. PTS stands for "potential trouble source" (which means a potential source of trouble for Scientology, and you, the PTS one, must pay beaucoup bucks for this rundown).
A person potentially becomes a source of trouble for Scientology if he is connected to a "suppressive person." A suppressive person, by Scientology's biased definition, is someone who is against betterment of a person in general or Scientology in particular.
So if, for example, your mother tells you that she heard a bad thing on the news about Scientology and that maybe you should investigate it a little before you jump in headfirst, and you subsequently catch a cold, then the ethics officer will "discover" that you are PTS to your suppressive mother.
Now you have to "handle" her (i.e., bring her into agreement with Scientology) or you have to "disconnect" from her (break all communication with her). Nothing stands in the way of Scientology. Not your mother, father, family, friends, no one.