Sorry, i've been out travelling, things just had to be done and investigated. U-MAN is working on something I hear to make me stop me mailing their clients telling them about the connection to Co$. But they sure are slow! Maybe _they_ will sue me instead? Would be even more fun. :) I got them and I'll send out even more and longer letters to the rest of their clients! As I mentioned earlier I was in London on my trip last week. Since I never have taken the OCA test I just had to try it. I tried to walk by slowly twice, but nobody stopped me. So the third time I stopped and looked at the books (Dianetics...) in the window. The guy standing outside their "shop" in Tottenham Court Road, with his hands crossed while he studied the wogs hurrying by, saw me and put on a welcoming smile from the left ear to the other. Many questions. Read the book? Want to buy it? No, don't want to buy and only read parts of it, I said. He was very interested in where I had gotten hold of only "part of the book". I said as truth was that I had gotten it from the net. I didn't pretend to be ignorant about Scientology, just didn't tell him all I knew at once. Told him a friend of mine once had a personality test, which lead him to asking me if I wanted one. "Yes please", and we went inside. It went so slow, 200 questions take some time.... Actually I was very honest, at least to some of the questions. I just dropped the ones I did not fully understand or was unsure about, hoping somebody would come and assist me. Since nobody came I answered 'Maybe' on most of them in the end. Some of the questions could have been great starters for interesting debates. The result was as expected: Bad...... I needed to buy the book! For those of you who understand this, my results was: A: -92 (_very_ unstable!!) B: 2 (below "normally" depressed, but not critical) C: -34 (a bit critically 'nervous') D: 68 (my best score, a lot of 'certainty') E: 24 (within the normal boundaries of 'active') F: 60 (above normal (=desirable state) when it came to 'aggressive') G: 20 (very normal regarding responsibility) H: -4 (not a critical state, but on the bad side of normal for 'correct estimation') I: -34 (unacceptable state of 'lack of accord') J: -50 (very 'withdraw' when it comes to comm level) (comments and interpretation in brackets are mine only) To me it sounded like an amateur astrology session. He made some claims that to me was so general that it would fit anybody, and he made other claims that was as far from me as he could get. He answered that with pointing at the diagram and telling me it said I would not see those faults or critical issues just because of what the test revealed. With all respect this guy didn't stand out as a new Albert Einstein, but that answer was very powerfull. Even I felt a bit disarmed. It's very hard critisising generalities, and like astrology that was just what he presented. But this was wrapped in a "personality test" which could lead many to believe this was a real test. My reason for visiting them was to take the test, ask some questions and just get to understand them better. That's why I did not give my name at first, and they didn't argue that at fist. The guy analysing my test and I had moved behind a partition and he started drawing on the back of the test sheet to explain the difference between the reactive and the analytical mind. I was patient and let him finish, only nodding when it looked like he needed some encouragement. When it looked like he was finished I said to him that I had heard the theory before and that it in principal was interesting but that Scientology basically made to much out of it, claims they had no proof of. He always returned to the Dianetic book, told me to read it. I said again that I had read parts of it and that honestly I was a bit tired of reading Lron. I mentioned some of the things I had read, like NED for OTs, different OT levels, SP/PTS Course, different lectures and a lot of HCO bulletins, among other things. I told him, politely, that I personally felt Hubbard must have been a mad man. I don't think the guy was prepared for sceptisism, he just left me there. Since it was boring sitting there all by myself, I followed him to the door. People started looking, something was obviousely wrong. I didn't want to start a debate inside, so I went outside. I told him it intrigued me that he, being a Scientologist, ran away from me and my questions. He denied running away, he just didn't want to talk to me suddenly. He gave no answer to why. Other Scientologists joined in, one obviousely thought he could breake me by talking to me while being very close. I just got even closer to his face. He also loved to put both hands on my shoulders, and a couple of times he gently grabbed my waist and asked me to leave while he tried to push me away. Since what I stood on looked like a public pavement I refused to go away. Several times I tried to tell them that I came to get a test and hopefully to have a talk to learn more about CoS and give Scientologists a chance to explain themself. As long as they stood there asking questions and answering mine I would of course stay, but if all left I would also leave. They didn't get it, all of us stayed and argued. I was actually very polite IMO, I even stroke the guy who liked to touch me on his back and told him I respected him fully and were only there to learn his side better. Maybe he was right, now was his chance to show me!!! Wow, what an offer. Standing so close he said he smelled beer, and I told him I had been to a pub earlier that day. But told him that the nicotine I could smell he had taken that day had a bigger physical and mental effect on him than the beer had on me. I just quit smoking one week earlier, so I gave him a small lecture about what nicotine does to his body and why it also is a drug. He stopped talking about me being to a pub and didn't even defend his smoking.... When he asked why I didn't dare to tell my name on the test I explained that I first wanted an unbiased OCA test, that's why I first didn't tell my name. Since I've been talking about going to London they may have been given my name to warn them.Then I gave him my card with name, address and phone numbers. If he wanted to check me out I recommended he could contact Mattias Fosse (OSA Norway and official spokesman for CoS Norway) at the Oslo org, David Miscavige or Helena Kobrin. He looked like he had won the lottery, put the card in a safe pocket and with a big grin he promised me he would check me out.I wished him good luck. Hope what he finds will be worth the effort. Then a new guy came and gave me a close encounter with his nose (they have a nose fetish?) and asked me what criminal acts I had on my conscience. I had to ask "What??" a couple of times, when I finally understood what he was doing I couldn't help laughing. Told him he did a bad job following the Hubbard courses, and since I'd already read them, and more, it did not work on me. According to him all critics of CoS was proven criminals. Yeah, if what I saw was how he reasoned to find "proven criminals" I don't doubt him a second! An older guy came out and had a speach where he told me I was preaching and that I didn't let anybody talk, each time I tried to answer some of all his claims. He was weird, he actually looked like he would believe in OT 3 if he only were comnvinced Hubbart had written it. He was obviousely one of the "big guys", he ordered everybody in and told them not to talk to me. Maybe I smelled or something... Then the friendly debate was over. I left with a smile, it wasn't exactly how I had expected it, but at the same time it was exactly how it should be. Hard to explain. I deliberately didn't have any copies of OT3, NOTs or anything else with me. I honestly wasn't there to make it hard for them. I was there to learn and hopefully get some respect for the individual Scientologists. If they had been smart (or found a good "tech") they would have listened to my views, told their own while i listened and just agreed that we disagreed. It's not hard, I do it all the time. Instead they run away like scared rabbits, trying to "bite" me to scare me away. I don't run because a small rabbit shows it teeths, they're just not very well connected with reality. Sorry to say it; but they acted like 5 year olds that debated more to convince themselves than to try to make me understand anything. My general impression of the people there was a bit tragic, but that may be because I looked for it. They looked overworked, stressed, unhappy, unpersonal, unkept. Some of them had not washed themself or their clothes in several days. And a couple of the guys could need new trousers, or at least some repair kit for the holes. But this is not fair to them. I was judging them with a sceptical look. If I had been in any volunteer organisation I would probably not even notice that. I noticed it, maybe mostely because they so hard tries to present themselves as something they are not. They aren't more happy or well adjusted than us, whatever truth they have found it must be damn well hidden. But I did see it in their eyes. I felt I saw the wish of being part of something big, instead of trying to understand all the others they had found comfort in adopting a faith even they can't understand. To them it may look like it could look good from the outside. But it doesn't. Disapointed? Yes, I had hoped they weren't as bad as I had heard. I'll defenitely give them more chances, but next time I'll bring more information to hand out. You can bet on that. :) OSA: Husker du når du var fri?????